Sunday the day of REST ............. OR panic attacks

I thought I should blog about this as many Brides I am sure go through this same thing. If not it wouldn't be surprising since I am a total control freak and tend to get stuck on things and think I need to make them perfect and change them..... For some of you this will come as no surprise, I would like to tell a little story of my first (OK maybe second or third) REAL FREAK OUT over my wedding.......


The day was this last Sunday. I was out for an exciting day with my Sissy and my strength (mother) the first time we have all been together doing wedding things. My Sissy decided she wanted to go to a wedding expo- in my head it sounded great, how fun to attend and help her out since I am mostly done with my theme and have a good idea as to how I am going to execute this whole thing! Nothing could go wrong, it would be fun to look at things for her wedding............ BOY WAS I WRONG!!!!!!!!


The only thing going to that damn expo did was freak me the heck out!!! I watched all the dresses on the runway, I looked a wedding boutique booths at other wedding dresses and about halfway through the first fashion show of dresses i broke out in to a sweat and my eyes started tearing up! I hated my dress I wanted a new one I was dead set on selling it and buying a new one. Side note- I am about 5 months away from getting married here and if any of you know it takes at least 6 months to get a dress in and even if you put a rush on a dress it still isn't guaranteed to arrive in even 4 months! But I was bound and determined through my panicked and stubborn self that this is what I HAD To do to right the dress wrong!!! So I texted a friend who had sold her dress online..... and knows of my anxiety attacks and kindly asked where she sold her dress. She directed me to a sight then proceeded to ask why I needed this- I then freaked out through text letting her know how much I hated my dress and I needed it out of my life forever..... Bug ( my friend) Kindly told me she would help me sell whatever needed to be sold and that she is the queen of sell your Sh** online... It was exactly what I needed to chill a little bit then she said one of the kindest things anyone could say to a person freaking out " Fer (pet name)You are beautiful and even if you wore jeans at your wedding it would be one hell of a special day" this would be the start of my unfreak! I was then advised to never go back to a Bridal Expo again... while they have a ton of ideas and everything I just don't know if it is worth it to go. So brides that mostly have it together STAY FAR AWAY!!!!

So there is my experience on what should have been a day of rest- I ended up at the end of the day need to medicate myself to go to sleep!

I woke up monday with a whole new appreciation and through other conversations with my momager and family it looks like i might just try to have loud statement pieces to accent and make my dress more "me/Diva"

Oh how I missed blogging!

Hello everyone!!!! I am so sorry it has been so long- I feel like there are a million things to catch up on so I guess this post will be pretty random, well more random that usual I guess I should say!!!!


First lets talk wedding bells!!!!
1. Bridesmaids dresses have been picked!
2. Rehearsal Dinner has been booked and menu picked!
3. Block of rooms will be released to guests this week, I am so ready to get this out and everyone booked!
4. Indoor decor is set.
5. Hair and make up booked- two of the best in the city, seriously I know some talented ladies....
6. DJ booked- be ready to dance your faces off!
7. We have someone to marry us! THANK THE GOOD LORD!
8. Photographer booked- so glad my BFF is the best photographer in KC and has hand picked people to help her since she will be in the wedding party herself! I will name her Talented- it only  makes sense. The condition we agreed to is that no one else but Talented is allowed to shoot me because I hate having my picture taken and for some reason it is hard for her to take a bad picture of me. Talented agreed we moved forward!
9. Day of wedding planner hired agreed to endless bottles of wine so that rocks, and all my vendors beware she is more organized and bossy than myself! I absolutely love her for that- I will name her Saint Organization!
10. FLOWERS- this was so fun I am so lucky to have 3 moms, My mom who I will call strength ( to be described later) my other mom who is more like a visionary- she is so creative and sees my vision easily, and of course my Momager! It was so fun I thought I was going to hate it and I loved thinking of new things and picking flowers out! AHHHHH
11. Wedding workout started!! 5:30am workouts have been a huge success! I am so lucky to have a MOMAGER. Yes you heard me my very own Kris Jenner Momager... she has been so helpful in keeping me on the right track of getting things done. Cardio is now wedding planning time- We run walk and talk everyday for about 20 minutes straight wedding stuff! Gets me on track for the day!



Cooking- I haven't made much progress but i will tell you a couple weeks ago we made some STELLAR chipolte impostor burritos! They were delish and i copied the recipe for the rice mine turned out OK- not great but it added great flavor- Puffin marinated the chicken for 2 days... Seriously Y'all we could have given chipolte a run for the money! I don't have a picture but puffin does and I will post it soon!


Life in general-

Well I guess I better give an introduction- To my mother Strength. She was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. She is not going to be thrilled I am writing about this but frankly I want to share our experience. Strength is a stubborn woman any of you that know her will agree! Her job is challenging she is on her feet daily and non stop, she is exhausted after every day but goes back the next day.MS is a nasty disease that sucks your energy dry and leaves you in pain everyday. Strength is the only word I could think of that perfectly describes my mom. She has shown me a million times throughout my life that you cant let the bad times get you down, you have to power through them and make your own luck and happiness. Does she love her job NO,but she goes back everyday. So in this phase in her life while I cant feel what she is feeling I just try to be understanding and supportive and show her she is strong enough to fight through this just like she has every other tough situation that has crossed her path. I am pretty proud to call her MOM....

                                                                         (My strength)


The closer we get to the wedding the more blessed I feel. Everyone has their ups and downs and so far Puffin and I are navigating those with flying colors, nothing worth anything is every easy. I am so lucky in life at this point my job is good, I have the greatest house in the world and a very handsome puffin I get to wake up to every day! Since it has been so long since my last blog I think to narrate the last couple weeks I will just post a ton of pictures.... So for you entertainment pictures are below!

We stopped and had delicious burgers!!! ( at 12 am!)

My all time fav picture of Strength and MOMAGER!

Below is the Bride (left) and Talented (right)



MY PUFFIN!Oh I got bangs!